34 Thoughts on Loving Yourself

Its so sad that at 34, I still can't able to find reliable friends by my side.

I even tried to ask out people from church, aiming to gather new friends, but sadly they declined me😔.

Well I guess it's so obvious that people will not trust you easily.

Anyway, upon receiving this rejection, I realized the answer to love yourself.

People often advise us to "love yourself",

But

What is it to "love yourself?"

I don't get the meaning of loving yourself.

Because I want to be someone else.

I want to be popular and I hate myself for not being popular.

I wanted to be beautiful and tall, I hated that I am so small of stature.

I wanted to be talented, I hated myself for not to knowing any kind of arts like music,dance, playing instruments or whatever.

I hated myself for being average.

No trace of loving myself, whatsoever.

Once I receive a rejection from the people I want to be friends with, I somehow realize that, 

It's not impossible that out of a limelight surrounded by beautiful people, someone will notice a simple and average girl from the side.

It made me realize that, I don't have to covet the things I don't have (like being tall, popular, beautiful).

It's ok to be average. I can love myself being an 'average person'.

I don't have to compete with tall people, funny people, smart people.

I am at my best when I am just an expectator, listening and sometimes being quiet.

I feel best, when I don't impersonate someone else. I feel best, not trying so hard.

I am at peace and I love that.

That is how it hit me "how to love myself"

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Bathing with Apple cider vinegar

I never thought I miss out on the joy on soaking on warm water while bathing.

😆 Well, as a peasant as I am, I will just have to make use of a small basin and pour how water in it and soak.

😊.........

The best feeling ever.

Also, I have been trying out putting 3 tablespoon of apple cider vinegar to the basin while I soak, because I heard its good for you.

I tried it and I like it so far.

I have random itch on my neck and arms and I hope it will help it removed it.

But so far aside from the smell, I do not feel any discomfort from the Apple cider vinegar, so I don't mind including it in my bath water😊😊😊.

It even helps me removes dead skin cells easily 👍.

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Personal Thoughts on Candida

I wrote a quite a bunch of thoughts about candida on my blognigigi site and I just wanna write down my fresh thoughts about it.

It seems like virgin coconut oil, increasing probiotics by intaking apple cider vinegar, ginger tea and other natural remedies, though it relieves me for a short period of time and is all good but they do not quite heal me completely.

Hence, I wanna share this new things I've been doing to help with candida.

1. Paying attention to my inflamed stomach

I am pondering why, even if I eat healthy or eating junk meals, either way, I still feel bloated.

My usual routine is still eat less processed sweets and increase my meat to rice ratio (for lunch and dinner), but I feel like adding exercise in the morning helps a lot with my constipation.

High knee jog in the morning.

I really appreciate myself, when exercising in the morning because it helps lessen my constipation.

So, how do I relate being less constipated to having candida?

I don't know?

It's just I feel better and symptoms of candida is somewhat gone (if not minimal) whenever I pay attention with my gut ( stomach).

The more I feel better with my gut, the better I feel with my entire body, having to think less about candida.

2. No Dairy

I noticed that whenever I drink instant milk powder or liquid milk in a carton I hurt my tummy really bad.

There's air moving around my stomach and I have to pass gas multiple times😖.

So what I did is to limit myself of dairy, I still drink milk with coffee but its within control.

So, that is it for now. Thanks for reading all the way.